ball game over! YANKEES WIN! THEEEEEEEE YANKEES WIN!!!!!!!!

So me and BJ went halves on a boat.  its a 22 ft sea ray. it needs some work but our goal is to have it ready for next summer. it only cost us $200. So worse comes to worse i lose a hundred bucks. oh well i think ill have fun with it.

weird.....

Current Mood: amused

Poconos  was cool.


Need a job

So many damn regrets.....Fuck

Worst day ever, made worst my fucking idiots.

One night I dreamed I was walking
Along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints.
Other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that
During the low periods of my life when I was
Suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
So I said to the Lord, "You promised me,
Lord, that if I followed You,
You would walk with me always.
But I noticed that during the most trying periods
Of my life there have only been
One set of prints in the sand.
Why, When I have needed You most,
You have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints
Is when I carried you."

        Today was the hardest day of my life. The decision was made to take my grandma off her respirator. My grandparents went to VT to visit my aunt and uncle Wednesday. Friday morning she went to the ER because she had an infection in a cut on her arm. They gave her medicine and they went back to my aunts house. About 15 minutes later she was complaining that she couldn't breathe. The ambulance was there in less than 5 minutes and put her on oxygen right away. In the ambulance she went into cardiac arrest and clinically died for 16-18 minutes. They revived her and she was in a coma until today, with a respirator doing 95% of the breathing. They did an EEG and determine there was zero brain activity, which ended all hope and the decision was made. The whole thing just came out of nowhere. Just watching my Grandpa killed me. They would have celebrated their 50th Anniversary this summer. I'm sure the days to come will only be harder.
      
      I'm at my aunt's house now and I'm heading back to Jerz tomorrow morning. I probably wont make it back to school until like next Wednesday. So basically my whole semester is all fucked up. I just want college to be over with already.

Current Mood: sad

I dont ask for much
But I'm asking you now
A good person needs your help
Pray for her
Even if you dont believe
He hears you anyway

Current Mood: sad

I really wanted to go to canada. nice house, good price, but whatever. What are you gonna do right. If we end up going to the Poconos im sure we'll have fun, but im def gonna go with a different mindset. im not gonna go to PA to play mini golf. Im gonna take dutis' theory and just stay plastered the entire time. But whatever.

Easter was alright. Its nice to see the family.

I learned this weekend to try and stay out other peoples problems... i got enough of my own


i can't wait to start working, because i really need to start saving money. i need to start paying off my car and i need 7 grand to pay for semester at sea, which i want to sophomore year.

I was just about to write a long entry about how my life went from decent to absolutely miserable in a matter of an hour....but i decided not to. i just didn't feel like it when i signed in. oh well.



Ski trip last weekend was probably the best one I've ever been on. it was nice to get away and hang out with a different crowd.

HSPA week was awesome i didn't do anything for three days.

Cleaned my car today, like hardcore clean, it looks pretty good.

this weekend has the possibility to be good, but who knows 

Current Location: home
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Lips of an Angel- Hinder